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Hello Salty Goodness!

I found a delicious crunchy salty snack that has a reasonable amount of fat and a lot of protein and fibre. Yes, I’m talking about dry roasted edamame.

I successfully lost around 65 pounds this year.  I’d like to get at least another 65 pounds off in 2012, if not make it to my goal weight. That means I have to make some more changes, like going cold turkey on Slurpees. Yes, my loves, my last Slurpee will be today. It also means I need to find some healthier things to snack on.   The dry roasted edamame was an experiment, and I’m pleased to say I like it. It’s not as cheap as, say, a bag of chips, but the nutritional benefits far outweigh the chips, as does the lack of greasiness.

I also bought some kale, and tonight I’m going to experiment with making kale chips.  The recipe I’m following is pretty straightforward–toss the kale in a bit of olive oil; sprinkle with sea salt; put in a single layer on a baking sheet and bake until they’re nice and crispy.

I’ve also decided to go back to being vegetarian. I picked up some great vegetarian & vegan cookbooks at Half Price, and one of my goals for January is to prepare one recipe a week from either the vegan slow cooker cookbook or the vegetarian slow cooker cookbook.

For 2012, instead of setting a bunch of resolutions at the beginning of the year, only to fail abysmally within two weeks, I have decided to set monthly goals.  I figure I can do anything for 31 days. If some of them end up being permanent changes, well, awesome. But if I choose, after 31 days, to focus on other things, well, that’s awesome, too.

I’m spending the last day of 2011 having lunch with Liz and the Monster. Then Liz and I are going to go see The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. And I’m going to Barnes & Noble to spend at least some of the gift card Joe got me for Christmas. And I will probably go to World Market with Liz. Then I’ll either watch Doctor Who with Joe, or else I’ll read.

2011 was a really rough year for me in more ways than I feel free to express on this blog. The things I have written about–losing two dogs and the house fire–are enough to deal with in one year. The other things have sort of pushed it over the edge.

I am declaring 2012 my year. It is going to be a fantastic year!!  I know–I have Faith (I am Faith). Wishing you all a very safe and very happy New Year!


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New Year’s Resolutions

The recurring question: to make resolutions, or not to make them. I’ve tried not making them, and always felt vaguely like something was missing–the act of making and then breaking the resolutions is a tradition, after all. I’ve tried making resolutions that I thought were completely unbreakable (I won’t eat oatmeal) and ended up breaking them (how weird is that, because I LOATHE oatmeal, but once in a while I guess I have to reprove it to myself). So maybe this year I’ll do a combination of resolutions that I’m sure to break and some that just might end up being unbreakable.

  1. What’s #1 on many people’s lists? Weight loss. Yeah yeah yeah. And who am I to buck that tradition? So I’m going to work on making better food choices and working out more. Beyond that I won’t commit.
  2. I’m going to go to the library at least once a week, when I’m in town at least, and won’t accrue more than $20 in fines over the course of the year. Hey! Don’t laugh; it’s rude. And since I’ve been going to the library this time around, I’ve only had to pay $1.80 in fines. For me, that’s unheard of. Apparently the convenience of having access to a library near the office makes a huge difference.
  3. I’m going to go to the movies several times a month. That shouldn’t have to be a resolution, should it? But too often I just don’t go, even when there are fantastic movies I want to see.  I’ve so much enjoyed going to the movies lately, with friends and by myself, and I want to keep that up. Caveat–as long as there are movies worth seeing.
  4. I really want to at least finish a draft of one of my Chaucer books. That’ll take a combination of some self-discipline and a computer that works far better than my horrible computer. Joe will get me a laptop soon, which will take care of half of that problem.  No one can hand me a gift-wrapped box of self-discipline, so I’ll have to work on that one.
  5. I will continue working on the house, decluttering and working on the improvements that need to be made (that part with L-squared’s help that she’s so kindy offered).
  6. And, oh heck, I resolve not to eat any oatmeal this year.

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I like the stories where there’s a big bad, and the protagonist has to decide which side to stand on. I like it when the protagonist digs in his or her heels and says, basically, “Screw this. I know you’re a big bad, and I may not have what it takes to defeat you, but I am not giving in.”

I believe that there are powerful forces in this world, forces for good and forces for evil. A lot of times it seems like things pretty much maintain the status quo, pushing back and forth at each other, so that nothing seems to change a whole helluva lot. But sometimes something slips up, and the foe shows his hand in a way that perhaps was unintentional, or at least the viewing of it by the protagonist was unintentional.

This may not make sense to anyone reading here. And that’s okay. It’s not for you. It’s for me. And it’s for the big bad. Because the big bad just pissed me off. That was a big mistake.

I’ve dug in my heels. And I’m standing firm.

Guess what?

I’m back.

And you’d better start running.

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So he’s been gone a day now. I didn’t do a whole lot last night, but then again, I hadn’t really planned to. I tried to watch Infamous, the other movie about Truman Capote & his writing of In Cold Blood.  I think it’s supposed to be better than Capote, but I actually liked Capote better. I couldn’t get into this one. I kept having to back up the DVD because I’d zoned out. I finally gave it up as a lost cause. I meant to send it back today so I can get some more movies, but forgot. 😦  I still have Man of the Year and The Last King of Scotland at home to watch. 

When I got home from work yesterday, Molly lazily dragged herself out from under the bed and came into the other room. “He’s gone again, isn’t he?” she asked me accusingly, and when I apologetically said he was, she sighed and got up on the futon. “Would you get these damned burrs out of my fur, please?” she then asked, so I obediently removed said burrs, and told her that if she’d quit rolling around in the burr patch, we wouldn’t have to go through this every day. She gave me a big old grin, said, “Yeah. That’s gonna happen.” And then she got back under the bed. Poor baby.

And the guy who’s been helping everyone on our street handle the property purchase by TXDOT came by last night. We’re losing two 50-year-old elm trees, because they are just on the line of the property TXDOT is purchasing. We’ve got to get someone out to give us an estimate on “landscaping,” since TXDOT doesn’t care about us losing shade or 50-year-old trees. And our deadline for all this is August 31st, after which point we’ll have to take their offer as it is. He told me last night that the property they’re taking is only worth $1500, and the rest of their offer is for our “loss of buffer,” since we’re losing the trees and all the shrubbery and trees behind our fence that protected our home from the noise of the street. It’s extremely annoying. We bought this house in part because of the huge backyard, and it’s about to get smaller. And it’s already gotten noisier there since we bought it because of some freeway work that has a ramp going up overhead not too far from our house. And then a few months ago, shortly after they did the property appraisals, TXDOT had someone come out and clear all the shrubbery and trees that were behind our fence, so it’s already gotten noisier. I shudder to think what it will be like when we lose our lovely huge trees. Ah, well, there’s nothing I can do to persuade them to not widen the street, and the money goes right onto the principal of our mortgage, which will be nice.

L-squared has been in Mexico this week visiting her parents. I miss her. Work’s just not as much fun when I don’t get to see her mischievous grin as she tries to sneak undetected into my office so we can chat during her breaks.  It’s funny how someone you’ve only known for a relatively short time can worm her way so deeply into your heart. Izzybella and I have adopted L-squared as our sister, and I was reflecting that A. would have really liked her.  I can’t help but wish A. was here sometimes, even though I know that things are what they are and she’s not coming back. I wish that the four of us could just hang out and all be goofy together. Being goofy with my sisters is one of my favourite things to do.

I feel truly blessed to have the friends I do now. L-squared and Soleil are such joys to be around. My life is a lot richer because they are part of it.

Okay. Time to quit blubbering. Don’t know why I’m so emotional right now, unless it’s Joe being gone again. Anyway, my plans for tonight after work include eating dinner at home, going to the gym, and cleaning in my home office while I watch The Last King of Scotland.

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to exercise. Okay, that was a lame one, so sue me. But this morning Joe and I tried to take Molly for a walk. We got halfway down the block, when a stray dog came darting out from between two houses. Okay, we thought, we’ll go the other direction. We got almost to our house, when another loose dog darted out. So things got a little interesting. Joe got Molly to the front door while I kept telling both dogs to shoo. Then I took her in while Joe tried to find the owners of the dogs. One dog belonged to a family on our street, but the other did genuinely seem to be a stray. It ran off, and I thought it was safe for me to go ahead and take a very disconsolate Molly for her walk. Big mistake. The dog came back. So Molly and I walked at a very rapid pace while Joe distracted the other dog. I definitely earned some activity points this morning.

Then tonight I got the brilliant idea to watch Morgan Spurlock’s Supersize Me. I love the movie, and I love it even more now that I’ve made tremendous progress in detoxing. I honestly couldn’t tell you the last time I ate at McDonalds or Wendy’s. I haven’t had a soda in months, barring the three or four sips I reluctantly took (at Joe’s insistence) of 7-Up on Christmas night. But as I watched the movie, I felt compelled to set up my Gazelle and do a fast-paced 20 minute workout.

It’s funny to realize that over the last several months I have come to really enjoy exercising. It’s something I look forward to, and enjoy doing. I must also confess that it was really exciting to find that my butt no longer touches both sides of the Gazelle. That was gratifying. And when I plugged in my height and weight into a BMI calculator, it was also gratifying to learn that I’ve gone from morbidly obese to severely obese. I don’t feel severely obese. It’s all a matter of perception, I suppose. Someone who doesn’t know me at all would probably look at me and be appalled at how fat I am. But someone who does know me would look at me and call me a big loser, or, like one of my co-workers, call me slim and sexy. I’m obviously far from slim, but I feel slim, and I’m feeling confident and healthy and active, and it feels good. So does the confidence and health and activity and good that I feel make a difference in the perception of the total stranger? Would that total stranger perceive me as a little smaller than I actually am, because I feel so self-confident and healthy? Or would it make no difference?

It doesn’t matter, of course, because I don’t care overmuch what anyone thinks about me. It’s too taxing to worry about anyone else’s opinion. The people whose opinions matter love me anyway, and those who don’t don’t matter.

It’s 10:43 on New Year’s Eve. I’m valiantly fighting the urge to make resolutions. I tried to make anti-resolutions last year, and even that didn’t work. I didn’t read all the books I could have. I ate oatmeal a few times. And I refuse to go look at that list again to see all the other ways I failed. I could make absolutely no-fail resolutions, like resolving to stay a non-smoker, but I don’t want to tempt fate. So I’m going to remain resolutely resolution-free. No resolutions. I’m boycotting the resolutions this year.

Now it’s 10:46 p.m. on New Year’s Eve. My tender-hearted husband just brought our spoiled dog a bowl of milk. Said spoiled dog is laying with her head on the pillows on the futon on top of my satin cover and on top of the blanket. I’m about to evict her. He is tender-hearted, and I am an evil bit-cah. Bwa-ha-ha-ha.

Dangit! I don’t get to be evil. She just heard the neighbors’ dogs barking, and jumped off the bed to join in the 10:47 bark. Oh, well. As long as I get the futon back, I don’t care how. And besides, my tender-hearted husband also brought me half a banana. And it’s okay that he only brought me half a banana, because he also gave me half his tangerine an hour ago. ‘Cause he’s just sweet like that.

Happy New Year, everybody. Peace, love, joy, harmony, and every good thing to you and yours.

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New Years Resolutions

I hate New Years Resolutions. Every year I make them, only to hide my list three or four days after the beginning of the year. And every year, the list has the same items on it. So if I’m 42 years old, and have made the same resolutions year after year after year after year, then I’m guessing my chances of success aren’t too great.

So here are some more practical New Years Resolutions, ones that I’m sure to keep.

1. When someone cuts me off in traffic, I’ll say something rude.

2. I’m going to read at least one book per day.

3. I’m going to read Chicory’s and Krista’s blogs every day.

4. I’m going to go to the movies once or twice a month.

5. I won’t eat oatmeal for breakfast any more!!

6. I’ll watch Rugrats whenever I can.

7. When it gets warm enough to wear sandals, I’ll go get a pedicure every payday.

8. I’ll write for at least half an hour every day.

9. I’ll take a 3-day trip to Galveston this summer with my sister.

10. I’ll kiss my husband and my dog every chance I get.

11. I’ll go to the fantasy writers convention in Austin in November with Clover, Liz, and Mom.

12. I’ll dance when I’m at the grocery store and they’re playing good music (or dorky music that I like anyway).

13. I’ll tap dance in the copy room when I’m making photocopies at work.

14. When there’s good cake around, I’ll eat a piece.

15. I’ll buy the DVD of “Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire” the day it comes out, and watch it two or three times in a row, and watch all the extras.

Happy New Year, everybody!

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