I’m just not really in the Christmas spirit this year. Don’t get me wrong–I’m totes looking forward to spending time with my family and to cooking a huge feast, and to having an extra couple of days off work. I enjoyed our work group Christmas party yesterday. I’ve enjoyed making gifts for a couple of very close friends.
But that’s stuff I look forward to all the time. Maybe part of it is that feeling like I’m not at home, and the decor in my apartment in no way reflects my personality or tastes. I don’t have my big huge Christmas tree that I got from freecycle, and I don’t have my favourite gold and white and burgundy ornaments because they all got burned in the fire. Instead I’ve got my $15 Big Lots tree I bought 15 years ago, and decorations that so do not reflect my personality as it is now. Nowhere to hang up stockings. Nothing really to put in stockings. No time to bake. Just feeling the blues.
I’m not meaning this as a pity party, just trying to figure things out.