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Over the last several years, God has poured down blessings on my head in the form of my girlfriends.  I’ve never had more than a friend or two here and there, aside from my sister Izzy, who’s always been my very best friend. Clover’s been there for me for years, as was Janine through some thick & thin. But we’re all pulled in different directions with family responsibilities, and moving away, and just general life interruptions.

I used to count the names of my close friends on two fingers. Now I need my fingers and toes, and it’s awesome! Izzybella, who has been the object of my adoration since she was born. Clover, who has been incredibly true and loving to me no matter what flaky thing I was up to, and lets me get her kids hopped up on sugar before I leave the house. (insert evil grin)  Janine, who loved me hard even when we didn’t understand each other.  Jehara, who cast me in the first play I ever participated in and really opened up my vistas. Amethyst, who shares her gifts and talents so generously and lovingly. Vanessa, who sees the world through a unique pair of eyes. Loretta, whom I absolutely adore for all the fun times we have together and for letting me dress her.  Jennifer, who doesn’t see her worth and her value, but who is one of the most gentle and kind people I’ve ever met. Gypsy Grrl, R.N., extraordinary friend. Chicory, Calliope, and Janet at Fond of Snape, all my friends and all of whom I’m dying to meet. I think I could tell any of you any thing, and you would not judge me, and would love me hard, and be there for me, and you know that you could tell me any thing and I would not judge you and would love you hard and be there for you.

And it’s amazing. I feel bathed in love.

Clover came over and gave me shots in the butt every day when I was doing the IVF. And she always shares her kids with me and she puts up with my kookiness. What a wonderful gift.

Jehara and Amethyst did some healing and cleansing rituals for me and izzybella, and we were all able to open up to each other and share and let go of things that have weighed heavily on our spirits for a long time. We spent nights in Jehara’s beautiful flat and talked about anything and everything, and accidentally sent the burning cauldron out the window, and ate bertie bott’s every flavour beans. We had shut-up-and-read parties where we stood in line until midnight and then read books we’d been eagerly anticipating. What a wonderful gift.

Alicia, who stayed with me for a few months, and who so lovingly gave me a gift I’d wanted since childhood: an Easybake oven.  We eagerly mixed up the little bits of batter and cooked them under that light bulb, and enjoyed every minute of it. And when I was having a rough time with a scene in a play, I asked her to come to me and help me, and she did. And then one night she told me I didn’t need her help anymore, and she went away. What a wonderful gift.

Izzy and Jehara gave me a special birthday gift last year. I’d thought for years of legally changing my name, but had pretty much decided it wasn’t worth the hassle. But they love me so much and wanted me to make it legal, so they surprised me with a filled-out affidavit that needed to be signed and notarized; they took me to get my fingerprints taken; and they took me to the county clerk to pay the fee.  The court date was set, and they were both there with me when the judge signed the court ourder. And they took me to get my driver’s license, and they took me to get my social security card, and they gave me the ultimate gift that I’d wanted but had decided not to get for myself. I said then that that was an untoppable gift.

But Loretta tonight offered me something that trumps even that awesome gift. Whether it will come to pass or not, it’s in God’s hands. But what a wonderful gift.

I feel bathed in warmth and love, because I have these incredible girlfriends to turn to. I love you all, more than I can say. Thank you for loving me.

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today was one of those good, bad & the ugly days. 

the good: i slept last night without the ambien. of course, that’s with a different sleeping pill that leaves a really disgusting taste in my mouth.

the bad: i am switching one of my meds to the morning, and completely forgot to take it this morning. so i’ve had funky brain zaps today.

the ugly: i’ve also been quite sick at my stomach all afternoon.

the good: i still have a job

the bad: 320 people in our company got laid off today, although they’ll be employed through the end of the year, which gives them time to apply for other positions within the company

the ugly: some of my very favourite people are amongst the lay-offs

the good: i’m getting my hair done on saturday

the bad: nothing bad really about that

the ugly: my roots that are about an inch long and all the grey that’s showing, hence the getting my hair done on saturday

the good: joe picked up dinner from chipotle

the bad: he forgot that i asked for no salsa and put some spicy salsa on mine

the ugly: he shared some of his with the dogs, and scout got too close to molly and molly attacked him.  both dogs seem to be okay, fortunately.

the good: jehara’s getting married next week and i’m going on a roadtrip with izzy and amethyst to be there

the bad: we don’t get to go by roswell and see the aliens after all

the ugly: four days in a small car will be interesting. but it’ll be good. we all love each other.

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readathon — hour 17

Title of book(s) read since last update:  started on The Ghost Files by Jeff Belanger.
Number of books read since you started: 3 – Talking to Heaven – James Van Pragh; don’t kiss them good-bye by Allison DuBois; The Stone Child by Dan Poblocki 
Pages read since last update: 85
Running total of pages read since you started: 806

Amount of time spent reading since last update:  40 minutes
Running total of time spent reading since you started:   290 minutes
Mini-challenges completed: 6 – Where in the World; Soleil’s Yoga Challenge;  Music to Read By; Honouring Dewey;  Rereading the Classics; Wisdom of Age Challenge
Other participants you’ve visited:  Jehara; Rhinoa
Prize you’ve won:  None

Scout just popped by for a play break.  I love watching him when he gets playful.  He begins by stretching, then he starts pawing his face and peeping at me through his ears.   Meanwhile, his tail’s wagging like crazy.  I throw the cover over his head and we start to play. He has a Ph.D. in cuteness, so it’s not a chore or anything to play with him.  And then he’s done, and back to chewing his rawhide, and I can go back to my book.

I love my dogs.

Also, I think I’m about done. I’ve got a lot to do tomorrow, and I’m still coming off of the whole no sleep for 2 nights. So I’ll check in tomorrow morning. For those of you still reading, rock on!

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Readathon — Hour Sixteen

Title of book(s) read since last update:  still working on on Talking to Heaven by James Van Pragh
Number of books read since you started: 2 – don’t kiss them good-bye by Allison DuBois; The Stone Child by Dan Poblocki 
Pages read since last update: 132
Running total of pages read since you started: 721
Amount of time spent reading since last update:  50 minutes
Running total of time spent reading since you started:   250 minutes
Mini-challenges completed: 6 – Where in the World; Soleil’s Yoga Challenge;  Music to Read By; Honouring Dewey;  Rereading the Classics; Wisdom of Age Challenge
Other participants you’ve visited:  Jehara; Rhinoa
Prize you’ve won:  None

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Title of book(s) read since last update:  started on Talking to Heaven by James Van Pragh
Number of books read since you started: 2 – don’t kiss them good-bye by Allison DuBois; The Stone Child by Dan Poblocki 
Pages read since last update: 61
Running total of pages read since you started: 589
Amount of time spent reading since last update:  30 minutes
Running total of time spent reading since you started:   200 minutes
Mini-challenges completed: 5 – Where in the World; Soleil’s Yoga Challenge;  Music to Read By; Honouring Dewey;  Rereading the Classics
Other participants you’ve visited:  Jehara; Crystal Posey
Prize you’ve won:  None

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I never knew Dewey, never talked to her or e-mailed her or blogged her. But she created something marvellous. By starting the semi-annual readathons, she linked people all over the world into this great community.   This is my first year to participate, and I am loving it so much! It’s a real-time way to connect with people. I’m laying on my stomach in bed reading, and there are people everywhere laying on their stomachs in bed, or on the floor, or on the sofa, or in the bathtub. And we’re all reading at the same time. It’s a monumental feat.

kudos. and thank you.

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Readathon–Hour 14

Sorry I ended up missing half the day!!!  Anyway, here’s my hour 14 update:

Title of book(s) read since last update:  don’t kiss them good-bye – Allison DuBois
Number of books read since you started: Finished The Stone Child – it’s deliciously creepy & scary.
Pages read since last update: 140
Running total of pages read since you started: 528
Amount of time spent reading since last update:  45 minutes
Running total of time spent reading since you started:   170 minutes
Mini-challenges completed: 3 – Where in the World; Soleil’s Yoga Challenge;  Music to Read by – by jill
Other participants you’ve visited:  Jehara; Jill
Prize you’ve won:  None

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