Yesterday I had to stop at the pharmacy after work to pick up a prescription. While I was waiting in line to pay, I saw a magazine proudly emblazoned with, “1000 ways to dress thinner!” I didn’t look at it, didn’t buy it. And just now in my email, I got an email about 10 ways to dress thinner.
I have decided that instead of worrying about how to dress thinner, I’m going to dress in a way that is flattering (in my own eyes), comfortable, cute, makes me happy. I don’t think it’s a crime to be heavy. I read an article last week about a woman who is a plus size model. Guess what size she wears. 16? 18? 24? Nope. This relatively sylphic beautiful woman wears a size 12. Since when is 12 a plus size? I don’t want to know. I just want to like what I see when I look in the mirror. Like today. My hair refused to cooperate, so I’ve got cowlicks sticking out all over. I plopped on a thin black headband with a black fabric flower and a gaudy clear stone. I’m wearing a dark grey shirt with asymmetrical buttons on the upper left shoulder. I’m wearing a light grey scarf with dark grey peace signs imprinted on it. I’m wearing jeggings and black flats. I’m wearing the hyalite opal necklace I’ve been wearing nonstop for the last month or so. And when I look in the mirror, instead of focusing on my fat, I’m focusing on the whole picture. And today I look cute, and I’m happy about that.
Moving on to self growth: Today’s assignment for Mondo Beyondo was to think of a person I admired, and write down the qualities I like in that person. Then select another person and perform the same exercise. From that, pull out 5 or 6 qualities that are the most meaningful to me. And then expand on those. Afterward, I was to share them with at least one friend in my every day life and ask zir to give me examples of how they see these values in operation already, and remind me of ways I’ve been longing to see these values develop and grow.
So here’s my list, and if you feel like leaving comments, I absolutely welcome them!
TRUE TO MYSELF
- Don’t change anything about myself solely because someone else is critical of it
- Question why or how I do things–is it through authenticity or because I’m trying to fit in somehow?
OPEN TO LEARNING
- Blogging/journaling/personal study
- Reading whatever I find interesting
- Discovering new blogs/authors/etc
- Collages/photography/oil pastels/chalks
- Guerilla art
- Give generously to causes I believe in
- Give locally as well as globally
- Get involved in more ways than just making cash donations
- Amnesty International; Cystic Fibrosis Foundation; charity:water
SPIRITUALLY IN TUNE
- Finding my personal guides
- Chakra balancing
- Morning pages
- Learn to eat from hunger, not from emotional need
- Find ways to be active that are fun (and do-able, considering my physical limitations)
- Massages/chiro for back pain
- Get to a healthy weight (below 200 pounds)
- Get cholesterol to healthy level
- Find things to do besides the routine of going to work and going home and being lazy